this old head of mine

I have so many jumbled thought up in my head right now and I cannot sort them out and I want to write them down but I want no permanent record of them. I need clarity and direction---and I have done all the introspection I can handle.

Maybe it is time to travel.

I attempted to vote today-- but the line was so very long. I do not have to be into work until 10:30, so I am going to try again as soon as i am done with breakfast. The line was seriously around the block. If that many people actually picked up a piece of trash in the neighborhood, maybe church hill would be clean. I mean, i seriously did not think there were that many people who cared....if we could mobilize on a community project, i think we could actually lick the crime and pollution issues we face in our neck of the woods. now all we need is a leader with lots of free time.

there was another murder near my house---saturday night. at 8:30 pm---that is not even late! I was outside sometime close to that--on my way to a party--- i did not hear the gunshots. but it was 4 blocks away. one of my students knew the guy who was murdered and said that everyone knew who did it---the police don't though---but apparently vigilante justice is better than "snitching" ---- an eye for an eye....what i wouldn't do to stop that sort of thinking.

i got into this line of work to be the catcher in the rye---but now i realize I need to teach the kids how to keep themselves from falling off the cliff. but i just do not know how.
but the public school system is probably not the way--though it should be.

ok, time to attempt that voting thing again.