not good

I am just not good at keeping a steady blog. Though I really want to be. I have things to say. But that is the problem-- i just say them---then i do not write them down in my blog.

Hrm. It has been a good long while, and my one "follower" already knows everything about me.

so let's see where to start. Let us start with 2009.

My motto this week is "New Year. New beginning" I keep clutching my new statue of ganapati (my dad got it from me from india-- they came back christmas day) and saying "time for new beginnings, right?" It is just so hard to change. There are several things i do not like about myself---but i like a lot more about myself than i dislike. Ganapati is the hindu god of new beginnings and I kinda want a new slate. The only problem is that evertime the slate gets wiped clean, i just mess it up again. What i need is a new way---but that is a lot harder than cutting ties and changing jobs and whatever....

oops. outta time. more later????