sapna needs her groove back

I have been bitching about being single for a bit now. I have been functionally single for a little over a year. I was thoroughly enjoying myself up until say....december....I had months of casual dating and fun times....Then I really had a strong desire to be in a relationship --yearnings for affection came out of nowhere---and I sorta started dating this guy and i went gaga for him--not b/c he was gaga worthy, but just b/c I was so needing of it all. he had many saptastic traits (number one: being a flake. why do i love the flakes???) But he also had poky hair and wore glasses and was tallskinnypale. Wore a big watch, had funny storied....

but he was pretty lame. noncommitalundependableselfcentered lame. took my gaga too seriously and flipped, not realizing that it was just fake gaga. That experience and a recent encounter i think have finally gotten me over my lust for nogoodrottenmindfuckingflakes. But I realized I am kind out of the loop of reality now. I cannot date. I do not know how and do not have the necessary tools.

#1-- i do not feel good about my body. hatching a plan to take care of that now (no, no surgery or pills or anything---good old diet and exercise plans).
#2- I do not really "hang out." It is hard to meet single, attractive men in my house--again, I have a plan. I am scheming to get off my butt in 2010. twentyten has a good ring to it. twentyten will be when i get my groove back.
#3-I am really set in my ways. This makes me bossy, bitchy, and undesirable.

#3 is where i have no plan. I am not going to scheme to change my personality and become more demure. I am outspoken and I hate dating stupid people. is that so wrong?

Well, 2 out of three ain't half bad.....let's see what happens. I will keep you posted. Until then, I am waving my hands in the air and wearing a funny-looking hat.

--sapna--