better in the morning.

I went to bed really grumpy (and really early) last night. I am mad about the new course I must teach, I am mad that I have to go to work on monday, I am mad that I did not accomplish all of my summer goals. I am mostly mad that summer is over. Bah Humbug!

I was so upset last night that I even contemplated playing the lottery. That is huge for me.

And as I drifted off to sleep (with an annoyed non-wokked oskar sighing loudly next to me) I thought of that damn, optimistic phrase" "It will all look better in the morning." And I was so annoyed. It will look the same in the morning. I am still embarking on a new academic year at a place I used to love when I used to not have to teach Read 180. It sucks to have been teaching for 4 years now and not teach the same course 2 years in a row. I cannot get any better from year to year if my experiences are thrown out the window and I have to start afresh every year!!!

anyway---i woke up at 7 (to oskar sighing loudly) and everything _did_ look better. Damn the optimists for being right! I walked oskar and made breakfast and it dawned on me, I love weekends. I have a whole day to do stuff and I have no plans other than a cookout at 4. I am going to garden and read and cook and hang out with my mutt. And it feels different (maybe not better) than summer b/c I worked really hard yesterday and I _earned_ some goof off time.

I just need to remember to make sure I enjoy every weekend thoroughly.
I also need to remember to keep my work at work. After 4 on weekedays and all day on weekends is SAPNA TIME!