syrup in my hair

I don't care!!!!

I am probably not supposed to be blogging at work, but the truth is I do not care. i just realized that at this rate---I am not going to get ahead monetarily. I cannot make ends meet at this job---I do not have that many expenses...mostly house and car. I do not go shopping for clothes every weekend (apparently many teachers here do). I do not have children (again, most teachers here do). I do not party, travel, etc.

Why am I broke? Why did i not at least get my cost of living raise this year? And they froze steps---so i do not even get a years of teaching experience raise until they unfreeze that. So I am destined to be broke and I reffuse to accept responsibility for this. I live a modest life, maybe not a meager one, but modest enough that my salary should afford me some space to save....and it is not.

AND I am working 10 hour days EASILY. so--I can't even get a part-time job. I work my tail off. I never used to think that teachers were underpaid....until i did my budget this summer...and realized I am blowing through my massive savings (not so massive anymore) just to afford this job. I have to dip into savings and I am not even having that good of a time? crazy.

So I am going to blog at work. it restores my sanity better than anything else when I am stressed. And so, it should be allowed. I either need enough money to stop being stressed or I need to relax some of these rules. i do what i can.

and believe you me--10 hour days are the next thing to go.