2 pm and all is well

It is almost 2 pm on the last day of thanksgiving break. I am pretty much done with my to do list--i should actually mop my floors, but i swept and that is good enough for me right now. i would also like to tackle the huge pile of papers in my study---but that just isn't going to happen today.

i think i am going to go to my parents' house and eat some leftovers. Then i might take a nap--i am at least going to read for a bit to digest. i will then return to my house to run and shower. then to ellwood's? watch more danger mouse? read? be hermit like?

I offered to take nate out to early birthday dinner via text. he has not gotten back to me. chances are he is asleep and/or still out of town. i kinda get the vibe that he does not want to hang out with me anymore. which is fine. i want to be a little hermit-y for a bit anyway.

guys always read me wrong. they seem to want to make things more complicated than they are and i do not need that. i am just looking for friends who care--regardless of gender or sexual attraction. it seems to be too much to ask of most people.

jason flaked again. surprise, surprise. why was i so gaga over such a self-centered ass? I mean, _everyone_ is self-centered...but not to the jason degree. i, at least, say what i mean. he says what he thinks others want to hear, but acts in a way that serves only himself. ugh!

i hung out with simon on wednesday. it was boring and pleasant. maybe we should never have broken up. maybe that is as good as it gets. i was soooo bored/agitated with simon, but he was so kind and so....there. maybe i should just marry the next guy who is into me b/c this is getting to be a drag.

i don't really mean any of that--i have been whining about my lack of boyfriend for a bit now. and, truly, i am not at all miserable. blogs are just a good place to whine. and it would just be nice to have someone who was around when i needed someone to read in bed with, to go out to dinner with, to walk the dog with, to nap with, to cook with. etc.

meh, i don't know. i just want some attention from someone who is into me. nothing heavy---just some attention and nice words.