return of the sapni

monday, i go back to work.

today, i went back to my classroom and got my planning stuff. alana did a much better job with my kids than i was doing. my classroom looks great.

i am kinda excited to go back---not so excited to be behind and trying to figure stuff out. but the key is "one day at a time."

I will be happy to see heather and jessica and a few others. i plan on fully avoiding everyone else for the rest of the year. not so good, i know---but other teachers add to my stress.

i keep saying i will not sign the contract for next year---that i am done....that i am going to finish out this contract and not look back. which might not be true. if i could go back to last year, if i could teach the classes i signed on to teach, if i could even start this year over with all the glitches ironed out...but maybe that is what monday will be...sure 9 weeks is over, but there are 27 weeks left. i can just start from the beginning in a way. i can be a new person. i molted over this leave of absence.

i am going to plug along and keep a low profile. there is so much i could be doing, but i need to cover the basics first---this year did not start off well. let us see if i can salvage it.