sweepy

I am so entirely exhausted that I cannot think. I have not been able to sleep well at night. I am taking amazing naps, but my night sleep is light and fitful. I try not napping and I am still unable to sleep at night....then I _have_ to nap the next day because I am so tired. Today, I cannot make it another moment without a nap. But I will have to. I have to stay awake for 2 more hours.

I am anxious to start packing up my classroom and with it, pack up this terrible year and keep it in my bit bucket. I do not want to erase this year--i have learned much and have grown from it. however, i am ready to have it stop glaring me in the face and kicking me in the butt.

I have pinned my hopes on the new curriculum for next year. I am glad that it is not fleshed out yet b/c then I have an excuse for not tending to it this summer. It will make for a stressful beginning of the year---but that is nothing new. I will not have the guilt of not lesson planning during the summer if I do not know what I will be teaching. I think after 5 years I finally understand what "they" mean when "they" say you HAVE to get your rules and procedures down the first month of school. I am ready to focus on behavior and get that right to avoid the issues I am having now---issues of students walking all over me and not doing a thing they are told. I always say this is what I am going to do next year-- i hope i mean it this time.

everything is getting fuzzy. I might need to nap here on my desk.