11.04.2009

stick a fork in me....

i am done, done, done, done.

i got ditched again. yes, again.

I made a return to dating about 2 months ago and have struck out twice---a month of each boy---b/c they are not ready for serious relationships....who is???? I mean, i know they would be ready if i was the right person. I guess these words are just stock words that boys use when they are not that into you.

And I was not crazy for either of these guys--they both had pretty major drawbacks that would have prevented anything long-term, but I wasn't looking for anything serious. I was looking for something that developed over time maybe. I was looking to have a good, caring time with another human being.

I can deal with rejection---really, I can. but repeated rejection? Over this "I really like you, but I am not in a good place right now" bullshit? How many times am I going to hear this? What is wrong with me? Why am I not a good catch?

I know what those reasons were in the past and I have worked on me. A lot. I cannot work on me anymore. I am done with dating. I can't do this anymore.

1 comment:

mnmlst said...

I'm sorry, hon. There is nothing wrong with you, and you *are* a good catch. You are pretty and fun and witty, and you have a beautiful dog. What more could a man want?

These more recent guys have, honestly, not seemed like the most stable of fellows. They probably genuinely aren't ready for a relationship. They don't have day jobs or (I assume) their own homes. They probably need to pull themselves together before they're ready for anything real.

I think a major problem may be that the kind of guy you're attracted to (generally), is an artsy, non-traditional kind of guy, who is just unlikely to have his shit together. It's just a hazard you face because of the kind of guy you like, I think.

And that sucks, but it doesn't mean you're not long-term or marriage material. Don't take this out on yourself, okay? :)